My life is all about studying now and i think it is disgusting. i hate to be in school on the weekends reading my lecture notes and no matter how much i dislike it i still have to force myself to do what i dislike because i have no choice. People always say you decide on your own life. to a certain extent i disagree with it. Of course i can choose to stop studying now and clueless-ly live the rest of my life. but it is not that i want to study, it is the circumstance forces you to do it. if you don't, you will be stigmatized as low-educated and bound to have hard time to find job or even lowly paid. of course studying can gains knowledge but sometimes i think we have too little time to appreciate and know what we are studying for can be linked to the real world. lecturers are always rushing to complete their modules without letting students to appreciate the arts of the modules better. and no, i don't have so much time to find out myself because beside insurmountable pile of assignments, i still have to revise for quiz, and catch up the distance which i am left behind and also weekends are for online assignments.

i need to travel...but thinking, i have to save up money! i am broke! ): 1 more month!!!!!! Just bear with it for another month!! i can do it. nights!

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