I've long come to the realization of this realistic and materialistic world. my mum was asking me other day about why do i care so much about my look, hair and facial things so i were like thinking hmm what causes it, because as far as i could remember i don't seem to care about my own appearance and whats more, what other thinks of me. so later on my sis also like sorted say i very 爱美 just because i wore washing glove when i washing dishes. -_- haha so it ponders me for awhile..den i could remember this drastic change was during the time i had decided to slim down for good which was in the year 2006. haha the worst thing of all is slimming is a life long process if you do not want your belly to come out in your 40's and you really really like to wear nice clothes..now i m still trying to achieve my 53kg -_- haha currently 60kg..~.~ like 7kg more almost impossible for me because my determination is failing as i aged. HAHA. so back to the story, i remember when i was in primary school days, how my sis' sch frens(we were in e same pri) found me super irritating perhaps because i looked plump and annoying to them and how my friends observed the food i bought during recess. i could like eat 1 dollar char kway tiao(that time they have 60c-$1 portion..1 dollar was like really huge) and then eat ice cream, jelly, bird eggs, fish cake, wantons..so they kept asking how and why do u eat so much ~.~ man then when i entered my sec sch it started to get worse, people like to take your food while u went to buy drink and say u shouldn't eat so much..then and all sorts of bullying issues. so then i think this world works this way, you don't look slim or good you are bound to get weird stares and friends problem.this is the stigma man.. so please dont look at my weirdly and say im gay or what jus becos i have tons of facial products and do what most people jus think guys dont do.. !! D:

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