What a green week it is! I'm still not convinced that i myself have changed and how am i be able to convince others then? Perhaps i need to put a greater restrain on my mind and body. They should never be coordinated and be cohesive. Its always the case of easier said than done so nothing could prove i've changed till i convince myself with actions :)
this week has been a tough week because of numerous trainings and outfields. i realise conflicts and misunderstandings are easily arise during trainings because we dont really function as one. i was enlightened and come to realisation after what PS Ivan mentioned to me..he was telling me why do i always complain xxx but yet i seem so close to him in camp? Ah this is why onlookers always see situations better than those are involved. i realised i am just blaming others for this whole load shyt of unfairness and troubles they had brought to me but never thought of perhaps i dun really mind doing and its neither their choices. what he said was so true. honestly i have so much more reasons to like than dislike him. ultimately, i want to ord happily, not making any enemies or cause any unhappiness memories to them or myself. i guess its just parts and parcel of outfield to complains and whinges but back to camp, we're still friends, no hard feelings right? this is what i need to practise, to appreciate them more at outfield. haha also thinking back i was being REALLY petty and mean on the appraisals. i muz admit i wrote that out of pit of anger and i should be more fair to them. definitely each of them have so much things for me to appreciate than dislike. i am sorry for being foolish.
i feel each book in is getting draggy because this last leg of my army race is coming to an end yet its the hardest path i have to cross before reaching the finishing line. i try not to think if i could do it because no matter what i still have to do it haha..im juz hoping atec ends soon because it is what causes conflicts, misunderstandings, hatred, biasness to everyone. i have so much faith that we will be so happy without atec and stay so cohesive. :D Just some thoughts on this platoon.
woo finally get to catch the movie devil..haha horror movie ahh..but the ending was lame..so i'd rate it a 2.5/5 lol 5th driving lesson tmr + moving hse. Fighting! =)
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