Sometimes we make mistakes
When we are lost;
Some of them are not big,
But we are still remorseful and lonely;
We start to walk, emotionless
As if nothing had happened;
But i still remember
This never ending fight.
It must be because that no matter whose love it is -
We keep protecting it.
It must be because that no matter whom it belongs to -
We really believe in it.
Maybe, in order to protect love
Everyone wishes to believe in something;
But I wanted only keep my love.
All serious sins...
All immoral things...
But I was holding on for my love...
War and destruction,
Crime and desire,
But i wanted only keep my love.
Every cardinal sins,
Every immoral things,
But i was only holding on for my love...
It is all about forgiveness...
1:06 PM
Juz got back home after the hectic schedule of ops duty WHICH haven over yet. I am not allowed to disclose the location but its the worst place you'd ever imagined. My lifespan would be probably shorten by end of the 2 weeks with all the chemicals around me. Save me outta this dung!!! I've always heard this in army "what don't kill you make you stronger..". I'm pretty sure its DAMM bullshit..i might not be killed directly but what about indirectly? man this sucks..
anyway..the duty is torturing..long and BORING. the boredom is what kills you the most. it's like cameras around the tower and you have to constantly stay awake and force yourself to look at the wide, vast and endless sea view for xx hrs xx shifts..god...zzzZZz no entertainment is allowed..sooo pls help me to get over it by swimming over and chat wif me? hahaha pls dun realli do it cos i'll freak out lol... anyway its cool to meet new ppl and probably time for me to be indepedent..it sucks to be dependent on family..i swear from now i will TRY to be independent except when money is involved :P lol
dad's bdae coming and he reminded me juz now..ZZ
ok time to slp veri slpy..
*im sorry..i dun wan to......i had no choice
12:49 AM
i am really really happy lately because fate has answered upon my calls and its good im doing it slow and steady. well..i received lots of terrible news this weeks such as last minute insertion for ops bacinet and punishments for the mistakes i'd done in taiwan, strangely i feel nothing about it..i duno it is a sign of maturity? or perhaps im juz too elated over things happened this week? i hope its the former as i noticed im getting less paranoid and frustruation and patience..this is the bits u picked up along your way of ns, you might not noticed it but onlookers definitely do..theres still one thing i hate is people say im quite petty? lol i dun tink i am la..more like sensitive to the surrounding..? whatever it is..i will try to change la :D
Juz to update i got in civil engineering nus..im pretty determined la..especially after watching prison break lol..thats the job i wan...strutures kinda things like organic struture damm chio :) anyway i got one more year to apply uni and im thinking perhaps ntu engineering is more recognized after researching online? but for now i will stick to nus 1st..
today i went to ubi driving centre to apply my pdl..diao..the customer service counter is opened but they have another counter for pdl which is closed..-.- anyway i saw keefe la..he chioning so i shld chiong too lol..i wan to drive before my 21st bdae cos i gt plans what to do :D hehe..and i decided to learn manual..dun wan be a pussy lol zz..
next 2 weeks my bookout timing will be unstable ): and its freaking far from my house...fuck! __ haiz..suck thumb..10 more mnths to ord lo..
1:28 PM
went to yishun met up with maung for taekwodo...i duno if theres exactly condusive because there are really lots of kids. i dun mean kids are bad..i like kids and i think they are cool and fun and its norm for them to be active at their ages, so i dun blame them. haha duno why i see the kids i tend to either smile or laugh because they look really innocent and pure. perhaps 8 years down the road its my turn? hopefully so ye..! but next few yrs i will uncle le lo!! YAY! hahaha..anyway want to thx herman bro for staying and teach me the steps..the jumps was funny hahahah..
11:04 PM
It's ironic how 21 days in taiwan seems so short and pleasant but 16 days in brunei is long and dreadful....
Anyway, on the day of embarkment i was told to go early to celebrate sgt zw's bdae. Hahaha the first person i saw at the airport was binqi << return me my hi-chew..zzzz den went to meet up wif the rest of sect mates. as usual..ppl late but i dun mind lol becos most of the times im the one late..i understand its not easy to be on time..afterall we live in a fast pace country..haha :D den..the last to arrive was the bdae boy and he was REALLY last...if u got wad i mean..:P so keefe bought a cheese cake from..er i forgot where :P and yep thx to my sis for making e card for him!!! poker dot card...nice combi colour..blue n yellow :) den fly to tw lo...but the feeling was good perhaps tw is my 2nd home and its my 2nd overseas ex. kinda usedd to it le..
so we arrive at gaohsiung airport and travelled by bus to hengchun camp..for ur info gaohsiung is at the most southern end of tw..and the place where we trained is super rural can..den after like 1 hr the bus stop..i was told to unload e bus..and omg can..i tot the bus uncle brought us to cemetery...zzz den i realize my camp is surrounded by cemetery -.- ok so the camp looks like it has experienced thousands of typhoons and I HAD EATING CULTURAL SHOCK BECAUSE I HAD TO TAKE A METAL PLATE AND GO COLLECT MY 3 MEALS AND WASH IT THEN RETURN. damm it makes me lose appetite cos im like a prisoner..the only gd thing was the bunk way better than brunei..toilet was ok too...
training wise..we kicked off with a 3d2n navex and i saw the legendary NINJA VAN at the start pt..omg lol..the like practically know where you at ahahha..next was a 1day cme..the wind was damm strong until sand particle flew into my eyes every sec till i see shit..and my face is like distorted by the strong wind ...-.- next was live firing but i dun ve to go LOL sib.. den bme 2d2n..cold like fuck..sbo walk :).. den rnr lo!!!
1st day of rnr was at gaoshiong see a stone...i swear i shld have stick to my original plan and not psycho by my fren... thats not to climb up and see stones...the tour lady say use ur imagination to see stone as a cat...i tried..but its still a stone????? man shldnt have climb..zz den next went to aquarium...quite boring indeed but i had my jumbo hotdog..:D super nice..den..lunch sucks..not buffet..had to squeeze sit + nt enuff food so i dulan eat bit go back bus enjoy.. den noon i forgot go where le -.- stm acting again.. den dinner and back to hotel..fuck up hotel..and toilet..tip of my head is like 2cm away from toilet ceiling.. den..at nite freeeasy..go shop and buy food..haha cheap cheap..
2nd day breakfast sucks like shit ..den went to jianfusan thempark sit g5..it was fun..i told myself to open my eyes but in e end still close HAHAHA..den had vikings which made me headache until i cant try the rest..damm..hate it.. den travelled to taipei..and hotel den free n easy went to wu fen pu until damm late nv go shilin..e hotel was ok..and got p.....lol~food was cheap n nice!! JI PAK..KAO SQUID..ZANG JIANG MIAN..AND MA JIANG MIAN SUCKS..SHIU JIAO NICE!! BUBBLE TEA SUPER DIFF FROM SG DE.YAM MILK TEA HEAVENLY..RED TEA SPECIAL DE..!! shopping buddy freddy n timo super fun sia..!! fuck it!! hahaha
den last day free easy whole day went to xi meng ding but din manage to find the jap street but bought many clothes...den xfer to taoyuan airport den back to sg and luggage malfunction until i stare at the conveyor belt for 2 hrs...thks..home sweet home!!!
:D ord trip - tw or hk???
1:21 PM
