bonding is such a complicating issue. i used to think to bond with someone is a hassle as i would deceive others and myself by acting not my usual self, as i tend to be a shy boy lol. however once you get to know me or rather i feel easy, my horntail starts to show, you might or not like it but i dun care. bonding, is such an inexplicable creation, which till now leaves me with numerous question marks on how it exists. but then again, when i think i found the answers to my doubts, it appears it wasn't so easy.
to me, i am losing my faith in bonding between one another, because the deeper you go, the one getting even hurtful and painful would only be you. this is essentially the same as the bonds in chemistry. the stronger the bonds, the more heat required to break, the worse it feels. yes i feel hurt because i couldn't bear to see my loved or closed ones or even friends leave by my side, one by one. the pain is immense and excruciating. i believe in time heals, don't you? it takes time to heal because as clock ticks, we humans, are not capable of storaging information like harddisks, therefore we would eventually forget the pain we once felt and most importatly, the person we once strongly bonded with would be faded away from our memories. its sad but we juz had to do erase them away from our storage, afterall we cannot live everyday with a gloomy face.
its strange when people once strong bonded with has changed. you feel the intense heat has start to sank in and the bonds juz weaken day by day. what else could we do if the other party has not realize and put in any effort yet? the answer is nothing..never depends on optimism, juz let time heals and forget them away. i'm tired and deadbeat..and afterall this is right..
"what is changed, cannot be undone. what's undone, cannot be changed."
Went to dine at Marche' vivo wif my 2 aunt, sis, 2 uncles and 2 couzinz. ok i was the one treating because my big aunt grumbled to me last week that i did not treat her anything yet. haha so here it is. my fav picks would be rosti, paella and fish. darn! no more calamari but i had fried mushroom which tasted really cool. haha crepe was cool too should try the fruit crepe the next time and nono to german pork knuckle..it tasted like..PIG. lol well we went in at like 545pm and there was no queue but inside was like pretty full. then like 10mins later queues started to form like to the toilet there and it remains as it is till i left at like 8+ hahaha..lol wth. den my aunt, being a typical sgrean, made an intrigue suggestion to go to RWS for a check out. haha i tink it sucks..mineral water sells at 2.50 each hahaha i shld go work dere liao if i flunk my uni lol.
army is both physically and MENTALLY taxing. essay time ):
