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What contributions have i make to singapore till date?

I have always believe in the idealogy of opposite should also hold true. Our parents taken great care of us when we were small and ideally, we would do the same when they are old. On the macro scale, Singapore has provided us with one of the best and prestigious education system, a safe and sound environment and corruption-free government owned state. These are all the effort and hard sweat our country has put in for her citizens and the opposite undoubtly must hold true too, which is we should do our part to contribute to Singapore.

We, humans are selfish who only think of personal gains and do not realize we are so myopic that caused us to be trapped in a small dimension. We always think studying is only for our own good and what we do not perceive is how our knowledge and skills learn can improve our homeland's economy. By gaining essential knowledge and skills, one can helps in country's literacy rate and increasing our talent pools therefore, attracting forgein investments to tap on our workforce and technological knowhow. By securing a slot in Singapore's university, i would contribute back to singapore by joining the workforce and not be a social parasite, thereby improving economically.

As how Singapore has provided a secure and safe environment for her citizens, i am doing my part in the national defense by serving national service. Full time national serviceman are required to learn the necessary military skills and technologies. I have learned the 7 core values and it has been incalculated in me to be fully devoted to Singapore and never take the peace living for granted. I also participated actively whenever Civil defence day was conducted back in school days and understanding the hardships of not having any electricity, thus appreciative to our dearest motherland.

Environmetal issues have been gaining global's attention and it is also our part to do our job and keep our country clean. I have learn the importance of reduce, reuse and recycle because we need to limit the use to products that are non-biodegradable and most importantly, Singapore does not have enough land for dumping ground. To cite a few example, reuse bathe water to flower, reduce the dependence on air-conditioner and recycle drink cans as piggy banks. Perhaps if we all do our part, Singapore can be a cleaner and greener place.

We should be grateful and further contribute to Singapore being a perfect state to live in. Afterall, what we are doing now is ultimately not for our own good, but for our further descendant. If we want them to be able to born in a resplendent place like Singapore, we should start acting now.

1:03 PM

bonding is such a complicating issue. i used to think to bond with someone is a hassle as i would deceive others and myself by acting not my usual self, as i tend to be a shy boy lol. however once you get to know me or rather i feel easy, my horntail starts to show, you might or not like it but i dun care. bonding, is such an inexplicable creation, which till now leaves me with numerous question marks on how it exists. but then again, when i think i found the answers to my doubts, it appears it wasn't so easy.

to me, i am losing my faith in bonding between one another, because the deeper you go, the one getting even hurtful and painful would only be you. this is essentially the same as the bonds in chemistry. the stronger the bonds, the more heat required to break, the worse it feels. yes i feel hurt because i couldn't bear to see my loved or closed ones or even friends leave by my side, one by one. the pain is immense and excruciating. i believe in time heals, don't you? it takes time to heal because as clock ticks, we humans, are not capable of storaging information like harddisks, therefore we would eventually forget the pain we once felt and most importatly, the person we once strongly bonded with would be faded away from our memories. its sad but we juz had to do erase them away from our storage, afterall we cannot live everyday with a gloomy face.

its strange when people once strong bonded with has changed. you feel the intense heat has start to sank in and the bonds juz weaken day by day. what else could we do if the other party has not realize and put in any effort yet? the answer is nothing..never depends on optimism, juz let time heals and forget them away. i'm tired and deadbeat..and afterall this is right..

"what is changed, cannot be undone. what's undone, cannot be changed."

Went to dine at Marche' vivo wif my 2 aunt, sis, 2 uncles and 2 couzinz. ok i was the one treating because my big aunt grumbled to me last week that i did not treat her anything yet. haha so here it is. my fav picks would be rosti, paella and fish. darn! no more calamari but i had fried mushroom which tasted really cool. haha crepe was cool too should try the fruit crepe the next time and nono to german pork knuckle..it tasted like..PIG. lol well we went in at like 545pm and there was no queue but inside was like pretty full. then like 10mins later queues started to form like to the toilet there and it remains as it is till i left at like 8+ hahaha..lol wth. den my aunt, being a typical sgrean, made an intrigue suggestion to go to RWS for a check out. haha i tink it sucks..mineral water sells at 2.50 each hahaha i shld go work dere liao if i flunk my uni lol.

army is both physically and MENTALLY taxing. essay time ):

1:24 AM

I might as well it post since i done it on blogger.

Reflection on Brunei

I believe the word 'Brunei' is what most people are afraid of in their entire army life especially if its their first overseas exercise. This was no different to me and i have long come to senses that since i could not escape and no point gripping and grousing over it, i might as well face it like a boy and come back as a man.

I swear i never felt so intense and nervous before as if i was expatriated to exile. This is also the first time i stepped into airport with a dull face, not like all other times. The next thing i realized i was not alone as i see many smiliar unwillingly faces. I was at the airport alone without my parents coming alone as i was afraid i might feel even emotional and miserable. Then i met up with my section mates and section commander whom together we would go through this arduous journey of Ex. Lancer side-by-side. I am glad they all turned up and seems determined to complete the exercises as one.

After touched down at the Brunei International Airport with transits on bus and water taxi, I finally reached Lakiun Camp, which would be my home for the next 17 days. I swear it is the most tiring 17 days of my life as i did not have a proper rest once i reached the camp, not until the day i was back at Singapore. The three exercises were back to back and the countless dry-runs and inspections were exhausting.

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They say outfield is the best time to see the true colours of one another. I agreed as i got to see it with my own eyes. Indeed, my section mates did not relinquished easily althought we were experiencing excruciating pain from all the walkings and heavy loads. They were tough fighters and i respect them from the bottom of my heart.

Also, without the morale supports from my family, i doubt i could complete the whole journey. They made me realized how little things in life like home cooked food, mum's nagging and flat cement floor can be so precious. There are many little things people do in our lives which we fail to identify them and then realize these are very strong signs of love. We live in a hectic pace of life and we get so busy and negated all these very little yet significant acts linger around us.

And finally now i can tell people, i finished Ex.Lancer.

11:30 AM

I do not know the sudden huge surge of appetite in me. practically i feel hungry every second and my guilty conscience is killing me. i do not wish to become like my old self where i indulged myself with food, food and food that caused me to be a slob of 78kg. can you imagine i bought a levis jean for my aunt's wedding of waist 38? i aint joking and i remember the times where i forced myself to regurgitate and starved myself every alternate day. those days were nightmares and also the reason why i am so concern over my diet which could be consequential and dire.

i need to balance out the needs to maintain my diet and energy to survive in army. i really have a strong dislikes towards rice and pork and i really cant force myself to gorge them down even i need the carbohydrates and fats in them to work out. it is also scientifically proven that as you skip meals or force yourself to eat lesser than usual, your appetite shrink and feel bloated even easier.

why do people grow fat and unhealthy easier than slimming down and stay lean and fit? why do people born with defects and do not have access to proper sanitation and basic necessities while others do? why do people born to be genius while others have to slog their guts out and then realize they still lose out? and why do people have an easier life in army but not me? all these callous reality is a test of our motivation, determination and perserverance to survive any ordeal. have some faith in urself and things will eventually work out smoothly. at least thats what i believe in.

God has imbued us with the ability to speak in thousand languages and communicating, ability to hear the voice of our loved ones and the gust of the winds, vision to see the wondrous of the world and the vast yet splendid skies, ability to taste the delicious delicacies and differertiating the 5 tastebuds, ability to smell the magnificent of chemistry and the peaceful air that surrounds us, and lastly the ability to touch. it always amazed me and i think it is the most beautiful thing on earth that is indescridable.

as i age and proceed on with my life, i start to look even ahead and occassionally think back the mistakes i made in life. i start to appreciate my surrounding, especially my loved ones and be satisfied for the things i have with me now. i realize how lucky i am and i thank you God for that.

my life is as boring as ever because army is what i perpetually deemed as boring. i was rushing for my driving ftt on wed which had expired and now i need to make a decision on private or school! argh.. chiong driving ah!! Just finished reading Survival of the sickest and i pick up a book introduced by my aunt; Today Matters, next probably i will go to Bible lol As you can see how boring my life is now Haha..IT fair in March coming soon ah!! Should i get a camera for my aunt as a form of appreciative? She seems interested in the Sony's cameras..shes very frugal and should i get ipod touch? seems exorbitant, eh? aiya sum1 go wif me and gif me advices.. :)

下一站, 辛福, anyone?

im a free thinker, by the way. :)

11:53 AM

wads e probability ?
this is juz after lao finish. half of it on the floor -.-
my dad, 3rd aunt and cousinz

my dad n me my sis and jiefu

12:40 PM

It took me quite sometime to write this post because i was really sick, high fever, diarrhea, flu, cought and whatever you could think of. This illness had caused me headache and feeling damm sick for the first time for close to a week..damm.. I feel it is totally not worth it because i probably got the microbes or viruses while i was in Brunei. Anything that harms me as a result of national service, i deemed it as not worth it. Ah but all is well now..i am still alive and kicking and better after the prescribed medicine i got from sg clinic( not the panadols from Lakiun)!

And no, i am not gonna blog about my experiences in Brunei. Everytime i tried to think of the things happened in Brunei, i got headache and the idea of hot and stuffy bunk makes me sick only. I am very glad i survived ex.lancer but thats the only thing i want to remember. I survived - thats it.

Time indeed passes very fast when you are busy with your own things. In a blink of an eyes, it is our fav season, CNY! $_$ lol I realised the festive mood is no longer there, even i am too lazy and cannot be bothered to shop for new year clothes, afterall it is just another season. I believe the reason is because we all ages so as we grow mature, all the excitement and looking forward to a season tends to be childish. lol I found another thing worth celebrating than cny and that is i am gonna be one year solider in like one month's time lol. And with a snap of the finger, another day pass, another month...another year...ORD LO! :D

I was back in camp on friday and i noticed how dull and boring the life is in army. Army can be interesting if you perceived it in another way and only if you want to...yayaya you probably heard of this bull shit. The thing is that the dull life is due to the set of routine you have to follow everyday..like reville, first parade, breakfast timing..its like stagnant, same for the two whole year. Even i want to believe in the bullshit and think positively, there is still this set of routine and rules that makes me sick of camp life. As probably heard, they will tell u its necessary to have rules and regulations so to govern the camp. Ok i agree but see the difference in other organizations compared to saf camp..? I shall not go too much in. lol

I need to start studying! Pick up a chem book!! Yes i will..

11:00 PM