I'm being weird myself recently and i totally have no idea that i am becoming more temperament each day. I could sense it that i am changing to someone that myself would not want to be. I realized the way things i unknowingly said to my close friends could hurt them. So as my fren told me, if you realized you are changing, its a good sign. Ahh i want to be like my old self man!!!

Anyway fell asleep after mugging for mle, actually not mugging, is flipping through a few pages of lecture notes and next thing i know is 11pm, awoken by an sms. haha thx thx to this kind soul so i wont screw up my sleeping time and i can continue on my revision. =DD and freak, my mind was so set to quit dota to study and i felt so proud of myself to reject dota invitation and great, it only lasted merely a week. Good job ah kelvin!! )=

haha my mum was asking me abt my tw trip and i told her 2 guys 1 gal. she was like o....m...f...gg... then she started nagging at me say what shes a gal cannot tarnish her reputation say must sleep separaretly. then i just tell her, shes like a guy la nvm..and the nagging continues until my mum act smart and suggested the gal to sleep at living rm while 3 guys in e room. i was like stunned for a second then i said okay to stop her nagging. LOL wad an idea..zz

ok back to study XD!! hahahah

11:38 PM

First day of week nine. And four more weeks to end of semester, how fast can it get man? I really had a great time today in school, starting with school in the morning with mini discussion with project mates at tutorial session(talked many craps) and first part 2 eg1108 lecture which i told myself to really concentrate because there is not going to have any webcast, then mathematics which is awesome, because a funny thing happened right infront of my eye. But i should have refrain myself from laughing so long because it is really rude to the guy infront of me. After that i rushed to my Japanese class which as usual, i really cannot remember names in katakana, so please dun keep telling me ur names in katakana. -.- i asked the person beside me oname wa? and the whole class started laughing. -_- Diao, anyway the dictation is like at the speed of light which i couldnt catch it. zz..

awesome day in school because i can meet lots of friends so i don't have to think what i dun wish to.

studystudystudy. bb.

10:39 PM

Contemplating if i should privatise this blog? I have been restricting myself whenever im typing an entry not to reveal too much and always asking myself if i should type this out or there. I agree that blogging on the Internet provides us with freedom to type what we want, but is it really so? Obviously we cannot because there is no such thing as 100% democratic society so yep. I'm thinking there are so many problems that i am refraining myself from sharing with others, i mean ANYONE, because i tink i am mature enough to handle myself and not to worry my parents and of course friends even good ones because no one likes to hear others nagging at their own problems right? Sometimes i wish that i could be selective to forget things, so perhaps i will be happier and not pretending to be happy. I hate to put on a fake smiles but this is all this World is about, no? Even you just break up you still have to go to work the next day and be enthusiatic, u fail your exam but still have to be happy because you know you cannot do anything about it. But that is not true happiness if you think again, you are merely forcing yourself. So i really wish to do things i like and live my own life and be myself not to live and hide with any secrets to myself.

Anyway, the other day i was on the bus, there was this 6 years old boy boarded a bus with his granny. So i don't know why, whenever the boy like didn't sit properly or touch the windows, his granny hit him. And the boy asked his granny questions but she just like ignored him. I know it might sound like some redundant questions to the grown ups but to children with millions of whys in their minds and the endless curiousity, shouldnt we answer them and share with them our knowledge and experiences? Isn't what we have been doing ever since the start of mankinds, passing down our expertise generation by generation? I will never do that to my own kid, ok maybe still a bit far, or perhaps to my -3mnths to be born nephew. It is plain ignorant for some people not to see the point, but then again everyone is different and i can't do anything about it.

Well out to concert soon. See you guys soon.

4:46 PM

The picture is taken on monday after A7's show and tell. It was so awesome and i got to know many of them even more. Everyone was so awesome and funny! :D I have gotten my mid term results back and it is quite pleasant but that is because i have only 3 mid terms and 3 cores this semester which is so much more manageable than last semester. I gotten work even harder to pull my cap up because i am not those can pick up things easily so really have to spend more time on school work!

Today i went to serangoon after school to exchange my ajays earpiece at orangcomm at serangoon. It is at a remote place near hdb area, Serangoon North avenue 4. Can reach there by bus 315 from serangoon interchange but needed walk some distance. I don't know if they have given me a new earpiece but it seems like a new one, hopefully not some refurbished ones because its damm far to do a 1-1 exchange for someone living in woodlands. and guys! its international warranty, because i bought my ajays 4 at taiwan.

Then I went to Hougang avenue 1 to meet my sister whom is doing her detailed scan at women's clinic. haha really awesome, got to see my yet-to-be-born nephew on tv while the gynae was doing some scan on my sis' tummy and its amazing. The scan was so detailed that you could see the organs, limbs, brain, measure length of body parts as well as listening to his heart beats. omg hes very cute! btw, his name, accordinging to my sister will be Xyle. haha. Angmoh style seh.

We went to amk to meet mother for dinner and as usual we settled at sushi LOL! its funny we like took excalator up and first thing we saw was ichiban sushi which is my favourite, japanese food!! hahaha. But i didnt eat alot duno why, feel really greasy nowadays cos lack of time to exercise, maybe jus an excuse, yes i am plain lazy. haha after dinner just went to breadtalk and supermart get our usual fav snacks and back home slack. :D

Will update more when i have time, now back to study mood.

8:08 PM

Gosh, Kelvin Lam, You should really stop judging and give so much comments on others. I realised i am always stereotyping others and i think it is utterly wrong to do that! I want to sincerely to be friend with every single human being i've met and will meet. I am sorry if i ever give you a unfriendly face or sian diao look when i talk to you because i am really trying. Been learning from books borrowed to be sincere to others. I hate to pretend and to be fake but sometimes i've learned to hide my feelings so much and for so long that it occured to me i can no longer show me true inner self so openly to others. Just wanna say i do not mean to hurt any of you and am sorry if i did.

Sometimes humans are just filled with so much emotions at once that its so overwhelming to handle it. I just wish lives could be simpler....

10:51 PM

So busy with school that i hardly have time to update my blog. Anyway today is NUS CE DAY! HAPPY CE DAY TO ALL CE-ngineers out there. I have no idea how this date come about and probably thinking it is the date which CE department established in NUS like way-before-i-was-born. As usual friday ended school at 4 and went to CE gathering outside foyer but didnt see anyone there. so terrence and i went to eat at mac and by the time we went back, there were like so crowded and there was long queue for the ce t-shirt. and OMG, pls no green t-shirt anymore. i was quite disatrous for ce camp to be in pale green but this, looks like i duno why. i wan red or yellow!!!!! red wld be awesome !!

guess wad? it is start of the recess week and YAY..ok probably not YAY...recess week is meant for weaker students like me to catch up and to study for mid term. AND after recess week will be hell, expects lot of project meetups and presentations, essays, skit, show&tell, PRACTICALS..oh fuck. better eat and sleep well this and next week ):

everyone pls go watch vampire diaries!!!!!!! ITS VERY NICE..and i have chiong from 1st season to now 3rd 3 more episodes to be on par with all viewers of the world..(ye fuck i study and watch at the same time, screw up rite?) i cant bear to watch the 3 epis cos if i do, i'd have to wait for new eps all every week..cant watch like many at a go anymore..ahhhhhhh

my nephew in my sis' tummy is a boy! oh! honestly boy or girl does not matter as long as he/she is healthy and able to see this amazing world!!! so expecting time will be ard july hehe.. :D cant wait to see my nephew because i know i will dote him so much more than myself!!!

my dad jus came back from business trip!!! chichi wa paris e shucchou shimashita. haha recently learnt how to say business trip in jap.. yeye!! he bought me shirts and pull over awesome!! thanks..!!

i keep asking myself why am i doing something i don't like?

but i still cant get any ans..or probably the ans doesnt exist at all? haiz.

11:09 PM

Happy New Year everyone! I really look forward to this year because of many things bound to happen. First, i am going to be promoted to uncle in the coming June/July. My niece/nephew is a dragon baby!! That is so awesome man! Second is the May trip to Taiwan again, hehe. This time round is in spring and can see my super friendly(hao ke) and awesome relatives there!!! And lastly, the start of new semester, because this one month break tells me holiday is fucking boring if there isnt much activities planned and no source of income!! Then again next semester break will have to go for 1st cycle of reservice. oh my tian. ):

i have many many new year resolutions!!

stay healthy all my family, relatives and friends
work harder for sem2. i mean give in my best not just plain study.
smile more!!
treat everyone sincerely.

haha!

the modules im taking this sem is as followed

eg1108! electrical engineering. hope it is not like eg1109..):
mle1101..material engineering, hopefully more on chemistry cos i am better at it than physics LOL
ma1506..NO SKIPPING OF LECTURES ANYMORE!! I SWEAR
gek1002! Jap studies!! look forward to the modern japan part hehe
laj2201! jap 2..i wan work harder for my 3rd lang hehe
es1102! english!!! mus jiayous lo though i dun like it.

:D

3:31 PM